Assalamualaikum,
Good day ya guys!
Well i suddenly felt like writing (practically typing though) about the importance of being yourself. It suddenly struck me that a former friend of mine just doesn't like me for who i am. Don't get me wrong, i surely have cons of myself but other than just my cons, that person just hated me and accused me for being fake. Well that wasn't nice. Haih...
I did blame myself firstly, I blamed me for being talkative, too cheerful or because I'm the type to take things too easily. Yeah other than that I have cons, alot of disadvantages of having a friend like me. I'm really hot headed, I get angry easily and maybe I'm too sensitive sometimes. I can't keep interest in one thing for a long time and most guys say I have a personally of a guy. Maybe meaning that I am a rough type of person. Just to justify myself I was brought up with a violent brother who would beat me up if I associated myself with anything girlish. I had a tough childhood by being pressured by my brother to act like a boy and never having back up from anyone. (maybe i should of stood up for myself).
But now this is me, I'm shy with people I don't know but very energetic with my best pals. I am brave at sometimes, but such a scaredy cat when it comes to supernatural stuffs and movies. I like to listen to Taylor Swift and one direction, but I also love to listen to mild rock such as Pierce The Veil and Sleeping With Sirens. I like to have pretty things but I also like to have some rock sense but don't worry, nothing haram ofcourse. I love to show my identity of a muslim women, but some days i just feel like rocking out with boyish cloths. Yes I have the right for showing my true colours and self but ONLY if the true colours of myself is NOT against the laws of Allah swt.
Now some of you might be cursing me saying that im a hypocrite. Yes its ok being yourself, but know that everything has it's limits and we humans know what is right and wrong. Only go for the things that are right. Example, this girl who does not have the looks of a model, she is interested with make up. Go ahead, there's nothing wrong with that, people judge her saying she isn't even pretty with or without make up. Neglect those negative vibes judgmental people give, do what you like but as long as it isn't wrong. If she wore make up to impress guys instead of her self satisfaction than that is wrong and she should stop. But she does it for her passion for make up beauty.
You see, you can never shut the mouths of people who judge and discriminate you. What is important is that you are true to yourself. It's much better feeling alive and doing the right thing even if its against the crowd, than covering up the dead inside, faking yourself just to be accepted by this ruined society. For me if this former friend of mine does not like me, than let it be, I don't need someone in my life to force me to become somebody I'm not just so they could accept me. To all my friends, i would like to say I love you all. Each and everyone of you has your pros and cons, i get it we're all humans and none of us could run from the fact that we are never perfect. So in sya Allah I accept ya guys sincerely and we all should tolerate with each other and make ourselves become a better person than we were before.
And i would like to take this moment to apologise to those who I might have misinterpret and judge. I used to think rock music is ridiculous, but now I kinda understand why people like rock. So thats from me, I'm just posting this so maybe some people might think out of the box and accept others more rather than judging them.
sincerely,
Hazlin Emira
Friday 25 September 2015
Thursday 24 September 2015
Lessons Life Taught Me
Assalamualaikum,
A very good evening to my fellow readers.
Well, now I’m up and its 1am, i am sleepy but i cant seem to fall asleep. I had a glass of milk alhamdulillah and it just came to mind that i should update a post in my blog. Today i will be doing a topic mostly will be for my own benefit as i will be doing a post advising myself and my fellow readers. But yeah, mostly it’s like me talking to myself. In this post i will try my best not to inflict bad assumptions towards anyone, i will try not to mention a single soul that knows me and i will watch my language. And sorry if my english isn’t so good, its been a whole decade since i came back from London, so my english became a little rusty. Here we go...
Bismillah, well it has been a really challenging semester for me. Its one week before the final, I’m at home because its Aidil Adha. I wish i was at my kampus(uitm kuala pilah) so i could like study for my finals and not be here playing with my laptop. So far this semester i have come to learn many things from the challenges life throws at me. Well firstly, im not the religious type. I dont do the things a religious person does. Astarfirullahala’zim. But i’ll tell you something, life... It’s only for Allah swt. No matter how you put it, Allah swt is the reason you’re here on planet earth. Whether you like it or not, you’re alive and that doesn’t give you the right to take away your own life. Ofcourse there’s a reason you’re here on earth, not matter how useless, sinful and terrible you are, if you’re alive, than Allah swt is giving you a chance to repent. So i’ve been reading the news about how many people are dying in Mekkah while they do their haji and umrah, so many lost their lives while committing themselves to Allah swt and yeah they died in one of the best ways. Then it hit me, so many good people dying, a sign? If you ever heard a ceramah or read about kiamat, you’ll know that before kiamat happens, the righteous people will die so they don’t have to encounter the horrible days of kiamat. Ok, kiamat is maybe closer than i thought (i said to myself) and it gave me some awareness that I have to change myself before its too late. Lesson number one.
Going on, there’s a majority of friends around me that has a significant other... And i’m here like literally single. LITERALLY. Haha, ok I’m not gonna lie, i want a significant other too...but i don’t have one. And to make things worst, some of my friends don’t realize that they are neglecting me. I won’t blame them, I mean who wants to spend time with such a hot tempered, sarcastic and over thinking diva like me? No one. There maybe times I go crazy and wished I haven’t messed up my old relationship (it wasn’t 100% my fault though) but then one day, i was really stressed out with friend problems(my fault) so i called up one of my besties.( She’s working and being educated at the same time), let’s call her B. So i told B how much of a loser i felt being alone and unwanted and she told me this; “Oh yeah I’m alone too, no one wants me (she’s lying) and I’m too busy anyway. All I’m focused about is working and saving money so by 25 I could travel! That has always been my dream, so I’m not gonna let some petty feelings get in my way” BAM! I was like duuuuude! That’s so awesome and mature of you! She is literally carrying out her dream (in sya Allah it will happen) and i told myself, I’m here complaining about feeling unwanted while my friend is literally fulfilling her dreams! So i realize, I have a future waiting for me, why should i let these petty feelings get in my way, my studies and my peace? Plus, devils are always around trying to push you to fulfil your nafsu so it kept me thinking how nice it would be to have someone by my side. I went to this ceramah where the ustaz told the audience, don’t let the devil fool you to see maksiat or what is against Allah to be wonderful and beautiful. There was a reason my relationship ended with my ex, and I’m glad it did. I’m just advising myself here, don’t pursue what was not meant to be, don’t pursue what is against Allah and don’t pursue something that will destroy you even though it’s the one thing that you want the most.
Carrying on. Read these words, satisfaction, greed, money, beauty, lust and power. The things that destroy humanity since humans existed on earth. Why am i talking about this? I’m human too, i have greed and i’ll never be satisfied with the things i have. So what makes me think I have the right to stand up against these. Thanks to twitter, I’ve been following accounts that post on daily about Islam and the world. It kept showing on my time line, about muslims around the world suffering and dying. I see photos of kids sleeping on the dirt ground, fathers losing their child in war and mothers being killed just because they are muslims. I sit here, comfortably on a carpet in a safe home. When i feel a little hungry or thirsty, food and water is always there for me. I have education, transport, money and gadgets. Why on earth, just why do I sometimes feel so jealous seeing rich people with their money. Why do i compare my situation with people who are gifted with money and status? Why don’t i feel satisfied? I could be considered one of the luckiest person alive. I was born a muslim in Malaysia, I grew up in England for 6years, I have traveled Europe, I have felt the six seasons and I’m fluent in English. Plus I’m studying my dream coarse in Kuala Pilah . It is more than I deserve. Allah forgive me for being so selfish. What I’m saying is that we humans are never satisfied, but we should learn to be thankful and try to put ourselves in the shoes of others that are less fortunate. Note to self, this world will never satisfy me, ofcourse because this world is not perfect. Jannah(paradise) is perfect and it will be more than satisfying, i just have to sacrifice my dunya for my akhirat. This dunya is just like a finger in the ocean, so small, so petty compared to akhirat, so why would i waste my life giving in to this dunya, disobeying Allah when i know that akhirat is the eternal and final destination of us humans and only the righteous are given paradise while the wronged will be tossed into hell fire.
Moving on, what goes around comes around. Believe me this is exactly 100% true. Its either you notice it happens or not. Example, i say that i hate lazy people and i will not imagine myself being as lazy as they are. Bam, a week after I just realize how i am one of the most laziest person to study for an upcoming test. Another example, i don’t help my parents around the house doing chores (when i was still in school), now no one helps me do chores. Things like this literally happen, so my advise to myself, watch what you say, always have manners towards others, don’t do bad to others and keep a sincere heart. Allah promised that every good deed will be repaid. So why expect people to notice how helpful you have been? Allah promised good things will happen when you do good, so I keep reminding myself this and alhamdulillah it’s true. Example, this friend of mine kept asking for my food, annoying at first but i learned to sincerely share my food, one day I’m out of money and I desperately needed to use money, one of my friend generously paid for my food and transport, alhamdulillah. There are many more situations that happened but yeah i’m too lazy to type.
WOW its already 2am. Now i feel sleepy. Alhamdulillah I got the chance to share a little about my life to you guys. Sorry if it wasn’t interesting or just too over acting. What I wrote here is for the benefit of myself as I’m the type to walk the talk, so i will carry out changes in my life and I pray, in sya Allah that this post will benefit ya guys too. There are people out there who consider me to be fake or a hypocrite, I would like to apologise if i have done wrong to any of ya. I used to be one of the worst, but I’m slowly trying to change myself. In sya Allah we all will change to become better. Ok enough said, goodnight peeps and never stop dreaming big!
Sincerely,
Hazlin Emira
A very good evening to my fellow readers.
Well, now I’m up and its 1am, i am sleepy but i cant seem to fall asleep. I had a glass of milk alhamdulillah and it just came to mind that i should update a post in my blog. Today i will be doing a topic mostly will be for my own benefit as i will be doing a post advising myself and my fellow readers. But yeah, mostly it’s like me talking to myself. In this post i will try my best not to inflict bad assumptions towards anyone, i will try not to mention a single soul that knows me and i will watch my language. And sorry if my english isn’t so good, its been a whole decade since i came back from London, so my english became a little rusty. Here we go...
Bismillah, well it has been a really challenging semester for me. Its one week before the final, I’m at home because its Aidil Adha. I wish i was at my kampus(uitm kuala pilah) so i could like study for my finals and not be here playing with my laptop. So far this semester i have come to learn many things from the challenges life throws at me. Well firstly, im not the religious type. I dont do the things a religious person does. Astarfirullahala’zim. But i’ll tell you something, life... It’s only for Allah swt. No matter how you put it, Allah swt is the reason you’re here on planet earth. Whether you like it or not, you’re alive and that doesn’t give you the right to take away your own life. Ofcourse there’s a reason you’re here on earth, not matter how useless, sinful and terrible you are, if you’re alive, than Allah swt is giving you a chance to repent. So i’ve been reading the news about how many people are dying in Mekkah while they do their haji and umrah, so many lost their lives while committing themselves to Allah swt and yeah they died in one of the best ways. Then it hit me, so many good people dying, a sign? If you ever heard a ceramah or read about kiamat, you’ll know that before kiamat happens, the righteous people will die so they don’t have to encounter the horrible days of kiamat. Ok, kiamat is maybe closer than i thought (i said to myself) and it gave me some awareness that I have to change myself before its too late. Lesson number one.
Going on, there’s a majority of friends around me that has a significant other... And i’m here like literally single. LITERALLY. Haha, ok I’m not gonna lie, i want a significant other too...but i don’t have one. And to make things worst, some of my friends don’t realize that they are neglecting me. I won’t blame them, I mean who wants to spend time with such a hot tempered, sarcastic and over thinking diva like me? No one. There maybe times I go crazy and wished I haven’t messed up my old relationship (it wasn’t 100% my fault though) but then one day, i was really stressed out with friend problems(my fault) so i called up one of my besties.( She’s working and being educated at the same time), let’s call her B. So i told B how much of a loser i felt being alone and unwanted and she told me this; “Oh yeah I’m alone too, no one wants me (she’s lying) and I’m too busy anyway. All I’m focused about is working and saving money so by 25 I could travel! That has always been my dream, so I’m not gonna let some petty feelings get in my way” BAM! I was like duuuuude! That’s so awesome and mature of you! She is literally carrying out her dream (in sya Allah it will happen) and i told myself, I’m here complaining about feeling unwanted while my friend is literally fulfilling her dreams! So i realize, I have a future waiting for me, why should i let these petty feelings get in my way, my studies and my peace? Plus, devils are always around trying to push you to fulfil your nafsu so it kept me thinking how nice it would be to have someone by my side. I went to this ceramah where the ustaz told the audience, don’t let the devil fool you to see maksiat or what is against Allah to be wonderful and beautiful. There was a reason my relationship ended with my ex, and I’m glad it did. I’m just advising myself here, don’t pursue what was not meant to be, don’t pursue what is against Allah and don’t pursue something that will destroy you even though it’s the one thing that you want the most.
Carrying on. Read these words, satisfaction, greed, money, beauty, lust and power. The things that destroy humanity since humans existed on earth. Why am i talking about this? I’m human too, i have greed and i’ll never be satisfied with the things i have. So what makes me think I have the right to stand up against these. Thanks to twitter, I’ve been following accounts that post on daily about Islam and the world. It kept showing on my time line, about muslims around the world suffering and dying. I see photos of kids sleeping on the dirt ground, fathers losing their child in war and mothers being killed just because they are muslims. I sit here, comfortably on a carpet in a safe home. When i feel a little hungry or thirsty, food and water is always there for me. I have education, transport, money and gadgets. Why on earth, just why do I sometimes feel so jealous seeing rich people with their money. Why do i compare my situation with people who are gifted with money and status? Why don’t i feel satisfied? I could be considered one of the luckiest person alive. I was born a muslim in Malaysia, I grew up in England for 6years, I have traveled Europe, I have felt the six seasons and I’m fluent in English. Plus I’m studying my dream coarse in Kuala Pilah . It is more than I deserve. Allah forgive me for being so selfish. What I’m saying is that we humans are never satisfied, but we should learn to be thankful and try to put ourselves in the shoes of others that are less fortunate. Note to self, this world will never satisfy me, ofcourse because this world is not perfect. Jannah(paradise) is perfect and it will be more than satisfying, i just have to sacrifice my dunya for my akhirat. This dunya is just like a finger in the ocean, so small, so petty compared to akhirat, so why would i waste my life giving in to this dunya, disobeying Allah when i know that akhirat is the eternal and final destination of us humans and only the righteous are given paradise while the wronged will be tossed into hell fire.
Moving on, what goes around comes around. Believe me this is exactly 100% true. Its either you notice it happens or not. Example, i say that i hate lazy people and i will not imagine myself being as lazy as they are. Bam, a week after I just realize how i am one of the most laziest person to study for an upcoming test. Another example, i don’t help my parents around the house doing chores (when i was still in school), now no one helps me do chores. Things like this literally happen, so my advise to myself, watch what you say, always have manners towards others, don’t do bad to others and keep a sincere heart. Allah promised that every good deed will be repaid. So why expect people to notice how helpful you have been? Allah promised good things will happen when you do good, so I keep reminding myself this and alhamdulillah it’s true. Example, this friend of mine kept asking for my food, annoying at first but i learned to sincerely share my food, one day I’m out of money and I desperately needed to use money, one of my friend generously paid for my food and transport, alhamdulillah. There are many more situations that happened but yeah i’m too lazy to type.
WOW its already 2am. Now i feel sleepy. Alhamdulillah I got the chance to share a little about my life to you guys. Sorry if it wasn’t interesting or just too over acting. What I wrote here is for the benefit of myself as I’m the type to walk the talk, so i will carry out changes in my life and I pray, in sya Allah that this post will benefit ya guys too. There are people out there who consider me to be fake or a hypocrite, I would like to apologise if i have done wrong to any of ya. I used to be one of the worst, but I’m slowly trying to change myself. In sya Allah we all will change to become better. Ok enough said, goodnight peeps and never stop dreaming big!
Sincerely,
Hazlin Emira
Monday 16 March 2015
Language of study
The problem Malaysians are facing now is the educational studies in which some are on Bahasa while other subjects are in English. Why is this a problem?
Primary, secondary and high-school in Malaysia now are teaching subjects in bahasa. But when it comes to universities or college, students are taught most subjects in English, especially for science and law students.
The matter is a problem as students find it hard to adapt to a learn subject in a language they were not taught at the beginning. This might result to low performance of students in their studies and high failure rate among them.
We need to take this matter seriously as it could effect the future of the country. It is highly recommended that students are taught subjects in English. The reason for this statement is because English is an universal language which is used all around the world. For student who would be traveling to foreign countries would find this very important and handy.
Just because English is recommended as the language of most subjects, it must not be taken for granted that bahasa melayu is also an important language especially in the southeast of Asia.
Primary, secondary and high-school in Malaysia now are teaching subjects in bahasa. But when it comes to universities or college, students are taught most subjects in English, especially for science and law students.
The matter is a problem as students find it hard to adapt to a learn subject in a language they were not taught at the beginning. This might result to low performance of students in their studies and high failure rate among them.
We need to take this matter seriously as it could effect the future of the country. It is highly recommended that students are taught subjects in English. The reason for this statement is because English is an universal language which is used all around the world. For student who would be traveling to foreign countries would find this very important and handy.
Just because English is recommended as the language of most subjects, it must not be taken for granted that bahasa melayu is also an important language especially in the southeast of Asia.